Thursday, July 24, 2014

Let it be known

My attempt to become more watery is a failure.  I learned I'm a land bound dude. 

Friday, July 18, 2014

It's ok

I had to wait fifty one years for today.  It was worth it. All the missteps, falls, blunders and ballyhoos helped condition me to reality and see through to what is deepest and most abiding.

Owning my voice and using it to tell my truth is the most important activity in my life. I see it now. It's all  about the voice. Not necessarily singing or speaking , rather the ideas and passions which ignite the voice,  whether it be sung, spoken or written. 

That's it. Simple. This, I need to move towards the voice, the perspective. MFA in writing, not counseling. Engagement with ideas and passions is where the juice exists. I want to drink.

Wednesday, July 16, 2014


Sounds dirty, right?  No problem it's Brazilian Jiu Jitsu.  After day one I'm smitten. It's fascinating. It's close quarters tangling. From aikido I remember the sense of participating in a lineage and touching the skin of deeper reality. Tangling with another human is all the words that spring to mind connoting primacy. How long has it been going on? Since humans were. 

Friday, July 11, 2014


Over the last few years an urge to study Brazilian Jiu jitsu arose.  I almost started in ATL then realized we were moving.  Now I'm a member at the Roy Dean Academy and I'll do my first class on Monday. 

Ahhhh, beginners mind. Stoke happens but you gotta take the steps towards it. 

Thursday, July 10, 2014

Moo hahaha

Can't help but laugh. Feeling some shackles slip off. Like onions there is always another layer.  

Friday, July 4, 2014

Interdependence day?

"The idea of absolute freedom is fiction. It's based on the idea of an independent self. But in fact, there's no such thing. There's no self without other people. There's no self without sunlight. There's no self without dew. And water. And bees to pollinate the food that we eat...So the idea of behaving in a way that doesn't acknowledge those reciprocal relationships is not really freedom, it's indulgence." - Peter Coyote

It's funny

Sitting here drinking tea before heading to the cushion I ponder the last few years. All dead weight jettisoned, empty relations abandoned,  rut dwellers left in the ditch.  

It's refreshing. Only relations where each party offers themselves to the other are worth cultivation. 


One of the most humorous events in my life is listening to people tell me about strength training, specifically why they don't do it or do it in an unproductive manner.  I've known cyclists who say, "I mtb to stay strong." Except the person saying it got on their mountain bike a couple times a year! 

How far and fast a person can pedal has nothing to do with health and wellness. I see guys on 10k bikes who can't squat ass to grass or do a pull-up but they can ride a century.  Body composition, strength and range of movement are WAY more important than cardio ability to pedal for a few hours( perhaps in a group where workload is further reduced- RIDE SOLO!).  

Note...any human over 150 pounds has no business on 700x25 tires.  Oh, but the fancy bike won't take a tire bigger than 700x25?  Get a real bike.